Forever In Your Heart

by Black Dresses

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1.
(Rook) The red sky fading in the distance The peacesign burning in a vision from God Please help me The red sky fading in the distance The peacesign burning like a vision from God Please help me (Devi) NO HOPE NOOOOO HOPE Eeughh... NOOOOO HOPE Can we make something beautiful with NO hope? (Rook) The nightmare hiding in the corner The dead hope that you always held onto as a little girl You know why everything is horror (Devi) Horror horror (Rook) You know why no one will remember us in a better world (Devi) CAN WE MAKE SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL? FOR A BETTER WORLD? FOR A BETTER WORLD? (Devi) (unintelligible) (Rook) [Lyrics unknown] (Devi) (unintelligible) PEACE SIGN You can do whatever I'll see you later You can do whatever (unintelligable) (Rook) ????????????????? The dead hope that you always clung to The dream that someday it would heal you Is there anywhere left to fall? I try so hard to recall hope Ancient hope Rotting hope Can we make something beautiful with no hope? (Rook+Devi) Ancient hope Rotting hope Can we make something beautiful with no hope? With no hope WIth no hope Can we make something beautiful with no hope?
2.
(Rook) OKAY UH ALRIGHT ALRIGHT UHHHH Haha... uhh... FUCK THIS SHIT UP UHHH Rock out rock out Ok Devi, (Devi) Rock your body uh uh uH UH UH Rock your body like a cattle plague Endless, paralytic, stagnant uncertainty Watch the death like a shitlib Sitting on your hands Never did shit, never known shit Never done shit for anyone ever Never-never done shit for anyone ever I know it's not easy for anyone We're all on a clear light hell trip But that doesn't mean we shouldn't try Just don't come anywhere near me And we'll be ok I don't wanna see anyone's face I'm dealing with my own shit right now You can deal with your shit somewhere else (Rook) TEN THOUSAND EYES (yea!) BROKEN LENSES SEEING DIFFERENT LIVES IT'S OKAY TO HIDE (yea~!) If you have the luxury... THIN LINES (yea) GETTING THINNER ALL THE TIME THE LIGHT: CASTING SHADOWS TIL THE SHADOWS ARE THE ONLY THING ALIVE ELEVEN THOUSAND EYES (Devi) Stuck inside a concrete bubble Everyone is "doing their best" I think that it's kind of whatever. But dreams are not meant to be achieve It's just not enough It's never been enough When the FUCK has it ever been enough Only to dream? (Rook) How do you know What direction you should go? Breaking into pieces Offering up your soul Keep it behind your windows I can't put you at ease or judge you Everyone is a different ruin Everyone has to figure their own shit out I'm not you I'm not you And you're not me I'm not you And you're not me I'm not you AND YOU'RE NOT ME (Devi) I'm not you and you're not me I'm not you and you're not me You're not me and I'm not you I'm not you and you're not me I can't even stand to be me. What the fuck is going on in your head? What the fuck is going on in your head? What the fuck is going on in your head? (Rook:) I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE EMPTY HOLLOW INSIDE EVERYONE'S FUCKED UP I CAN'T TELL YOU THAT YOU'RE FINE Life goes on, you know? (Devi) Is that...? shit.
3.
Bulldozer 02:56
(Devi) Pussy like a bulldozer Pussy like a bulldozer, drooling and grinding Pussy like a bulldozer Pussy like a blown out speaker Pussy like a bulldozer My pussy like a bulldozer, drooling and grinding My pussy like a bulldozer My pussy like a blown out speaker My pussy like nothing at all So it doesn't matter I could fall apart right now if I wanted to Give it to you raw Like this, no autotune But I could still feel it But you could still hear it No one wants to say what. Kinda skittish like a cheating love Change your life like a free hug Changing tactics like I give a fuck Kinda fucked up... (Rook) Fucked up. Pussy like a Pussy like a Pussy like a- uh- My pussy like a (Devi) I thought there was a mistake but I was wrong Thought there was something I was missing, I was different But I was- I wanted to be like the other girls Now I'm just like the other girls I wanted to be like the other girls Now I'm just like the other girls I wanted to be like the other girls Now I'm just like the other girls (Rook) Pussy like a Pussy like a Pussy like a Pussy like a My pussy like a blown out speaker Uhuh
4.
Heaven 03:08
(Devi) I'm just meat without a soul, Without a brain, Without anything, An animal. I'm just meat without a soul, Without a brain, Without anything, An animal, I have no spirit everlasting. I love feelin' pain Makes me feel like I'm going to heaven Makes me feel like I'm going to heaven Makes me feel like I'm going to heaven I love feeling pain Makes me feel like I'm going to heaven Makes me feel like I'm going to heaven MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO HEAVEN (Rook) The night explodes in the light From a shooting star All things beautiful and warm Reflected in your heart And all broken creatures are Perfect just the way they are But it's easy to be disillusioned When you don't know who you are (Devi) Ok uhh (clears throat) Uh yea I'm nothing I'm less than nothing I'm just spit in the wind That's- That's so wonderful Isn't it beautiful? I know that you are doing good! Every sunrise brings a new tomorrow! (Rook) The night explodes in the light From a shooting star IT'S EASY TO BECOME DISILLUSIONED WHEN YOU DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE And it can live forever in your heart It can live forever in your heart Forever in your heart It can live forever in your sick pathetic little heart
5.
Tiny Ball 02:15
(Rook) Everything's inside a tiny ball Everything's inside a tiny little ball Of fear and pain Everything's inside a tiny ball Everything's inside a tiny little ball Of suffering (Rook+Devi) We all live inside a tiny ball We all live inside a tiny ball Of pain and suffering (Rook) Inside our tiny little walls (Rook+Devi) Tiny balls for life Hell yeah hell yeah We all live inside a tiny ball (Rook) Stuck inside our tiny little walls (Rook+Devi) Everything's so tiny and small (Rook) Tiny little ball (Rook+Devi) We all live inside a tiny tiny little ball (Devi) I know it sounds stupid for a world like this, People do their best And still come off so twisted up and so heartless And I know I'm grateful if someone tries at all Still ends crumpled up, Scrunched up, like a tossed away love letter but (Devi+Rook) I think (Devi) If there was ever a right way to do it (Devi+Rook) I think (Devi) That nobody's ever even done it (Devi+Rook) And I know (Devi) A Stupid Evil Eye for Perfection (Devi+Rook) Even though (Devi) It's unsuited for a world like this (Rook) A tiny little ball Tiny little ball.
6.
Silver Bells 03:11
(Devi) I always hoped that it could be something else I couldn't think about it cos it made me too depressed And in my head it rang like silver bells To think that even one single wound could be healed But on a clear and cloudless day It feels like the planets atmosphere Is stitched together by everyone's pain And we just breathe it in... But they want something that they couldn't get (Rook) Something that no longer exists Or that doesn't yet And we try so hard And we try to make Something out of this (Devi) Sad and rainy day (Devi) I always hoped that it could be something else (x4) (Rook) I'M TIRED I'M OUT OF BREATH I'M SCARED OF EVERYTHING THAT'S LEFT I JUST WANT SOME GENTLENESS BUT TENSION AND DESPAIR IS ALL WE EVER GET (Devi) Are u ok? (Rook) Sorry, um, (Devi) No no but like are- (Rook) Got kinda carried away there... (Devi) I'm saying are you actually, (Rook) Ok (Devi) Whatever... (Rook) Lemme try this one more time Building it out of ashes (Rook+Devi) Building it out of trash it's all we've got left Building it out of ashes Building it out of trash it's all we've got left (Rook) MOTHERFUCKER YEAH!!!! (Devi) On a clear and cloudless day It feels like the planets atmosphere (Rook) Haha.... Motherfucker. Yeah. (Rook+Devi) Is stitched together by everyone's pain (Rook+Devi) Building it out of ashes Building it out of trash it's all we've got left Building it out of ashes Building it out of trash it's all we've got left Building it out of ashes Building it out of trash it's all we've got left BUILDING IT OUT OF ASHES BUILDING IT OUT OF TRASH ITS ALL WE'VE GOT LEFT (Rook) I need somewhere to spit in here... (Devi) Like m
7.
Ragequitted 03:03
(Devi) Wasn't it? Wasn't it? Didn't you do it by accident? I could think a million things I could think of many things Wasn't it? Wasn't it? Didn't do it by accident I could think a million things I could think a million things I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna prove I was wrong about you I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna prove I was right about you (Rook) Couldn't it wouldn't it Couldn't it be any different Failing a careful balance Falling into distance Wouldn't it wouldn't it Wouldn't it be any different Overwhelmed by static So far past the limit Someday she'll know she'll know what peace feels like She walks alone through warm and placeless city nights And everyone who told her otherwise Doesn't remember she was even in their lives (Devi) I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna prove I was wrong about you I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna prove I was right about you (laughs) Was a bit busted since I never tried singing it with like with the key change but yea oh its still recording.
8.
(Devi) White noise kinda drown me out White hot flame kinda melt me down White hot pain lightning thundercloud Well, what the hell else is there to talk about? I don't think we can talk it out. We can't talk it out. Never even mattered what I talk about. I don't want ppl listen to me If I had an answer, you think I'd be singing it? (Rook) I don't know anything And I can't pretend I do I pretend a lot of things though So I guess I don't blame you Every day in this world: Pretend I'm not scared Pretend that I'm somewhere else Pretend that everyone Doesn't feel this lost as well Pretend that I can see Heaven just beyond the sky But I know it's somewhere else That's reflected in my eyes (Devi) WAITING FOR TOMORROW WAITING FOR TOMORROW WAITING FOR TOMORROW FEELIN' LIKE SHIT WAITING FOR TOMORROW WAITIN' FOR TOMORROW WAITING FOR TOMORROW FEELIN' LIKE SHIT WAITING FOR TOMORROW WAITING FOR TOMORROW WAITING FOR TOMORROW FEELING LIKE SHIT WAITIN' FOR TOMORROW WAITIN' FOR TOMORROW WAITING FOR TOMORROW FEELIN' LIKE (Rook) I can almost see I can almost taste I can almost touch that better place In a single day I know everything can change But this dead world won't go away (Devi) Pulling, yanking, dragging on a thread to heaven I don't know if it's wrong Pulling, yankin', draggin' on a thread to heaven I know if I try, I'll just fuck it up worse than it is A little dirt might cover up the wound (Rook) A little dirt might cover up the wound (Devi) But a little dirt might infect it too (Rook) Infect it too (Devi) There's no right choices to make in this life (Rook) This life (Devi) All you can do is what you can do (Rook) I can almost see I can almost taste I can almost touch that better place In a single day I know everything can change But this dead world won't go away
9.
(Devi) Certain types of fire, Does it burn us into shapes? Always tends to make everything in the universe Seem like a tiny sparkle Unexpected and cute. Thankfully, Gratefully, Gone in an instant. (Rook) And everything crumbles into pieces In a blooming fractal flood But no one staring at it can believe it As it freezes out the sun An empty dream A stupid dream A hopeless dream And everything continues Just like everything does Just like pain Just like love (Devi) Just like love I can't explain the way I feel at all, o~ooh I wanted, I wanted to show what I meant But the meaning just slipped thru my hands I wanted to do better than I did But isn't that just life? (Rook) And everything crumbles into pieces In a blooming fractal flood But no one staring at it can believe it As it freezes out the sun An empty dream A stupid dream A hopeless dream And everything continues Just like everything does Just like pain Just like love
10.
(Devi) People always say that we'll figure it out But everything just keeps piling on up Economy size blood bigger than God We'll just solve 10,000 years of problems Next generation gives all of the hope Fix it all up 'til nothing is wrong So keep piling it up Pass it along I know we can solve all of the problems I'm breaking it It's broken I open it It opens I'm breaking it It's broken I open it It opens I'm drowning and I'm floating I'm dreaming and I'm hopeless I don't give a shit if it doesn't work I done a lot of things and none of them worked I'M BREAKING IT IT'S BROKEN I OPEN IT IT OPENS I'M BREAKING IT IT'S BROKEN I OPEN IT IT OPENS I'M DROWNING AND I'M FLOATING I'M DREAMING AND I'M HOPELESS I DON'T GIVE A SHIT IF IT DOESN'T WORK I'VE DONE A LOT OF THINGS AND NONE OF THEM WORKED I'm fucking in a trap We're fucking in a trap We're fucking in a trap We're ffuucking in a trap We're Fucking In A trap We're fucking in a trap We're fucking IN a trap We're fucking IN A Trap We're Fucking in a TRAP We're Fucking in a TRAP We're FUCKING In a Trap We're Fucking In A Trap We're fucking In a trap We're fucking in a trap We're fucking in the doorway of the trap (Rook) I'M JUST TRYING TO UN-FUCK MY BRAIN AND SLEEP LATELY Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmmmm ok I WISH I WAS FAKER SO PEOPLE WOULD HATE THE FAKE ME (Devi) I don't wanna say it (Rook) I DON'T WANNA SAY IT (Devi) uh uh uh uh uh (Rook+ Devi) I DON'T WANNA SAY IT uh uh uh uh uh uh uh uh uh (Rook+Devi) I'M BREAKING IT IT'S BROKEN I OPEN IT IT OPENS I'M BREAKING IT IT'S BROKEN I OPEN IT IT OPENS I'M DROWNING AND I'M FLOATING I'M DREAMING AND I'M HOPELESS I DON'T GIVE A SHIT IF IT DOESN'T WORK I'VE DONE A LOT OF THINGS AND NONE OF THEM WORKED
11.
(Rook) Grey city, 2016 Night bus home, N19 Chain link, rain and concrete Lashing out and falling Picking quarters up off the hardwood Skytrain, Joyce-Collingwood Losing floating knowing Stopping pain from showing (Rook+Devi) Hell to me in the moment Scream internally Soul exits me (Rook) Through all the lines i write (Rook+Devi) In basements far away If I can purge This broken hurt In haunted words Will it surround me? (Rook) And like the city nights just drift away (Devi) I couldn't figure it out I couldn't fix it by myself I couldn't do it alone I couldn't figure it out I couldn't fix it by myself Everyone else seems so strong and I tried to offer up my pain to be understood But I don't think it's my pain that can be understood, Or needs understanding. There's not a lot of pain in the world that makes any sense I wonder where all this pain comes from, And this evil is, And where it lives? (Rook) Future wide open But defined as broken Every achievement Hoping wishing aching never knowing The pain I write about So I don't fucking die Interpreted as everything I've got to offer in this life FUCK NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Rook+Devi) Time is a circle Forever hurtful No hesitation Nostalgia or ideation (Devi) I couldn't figure it out I couldn't do it alone I couldn't fix it by myself Everyone else seemed so strong I tried to offer up my pain to be understood But I don't think it's my pain that can be understood, Or needs understanding. There's not a lot of pain in the world that makes any sense Maybe people need to be understood instead. I tried to understand why it happened like that But it just made my soul break down (Rook) Break down and (Devi) I didn't want things to go like that For a while I was confused, But now I think I understand.
12.
(Rook) Everything, Everything that you are Everything that you are Everything that you are Everything that you learn Everything that you learn Everything that you learn Everything Everything Everything Everything that I love (Devi) Summer- (Rook+Devi) Summer heat Winter freeze (Rook) Broken bones (Rook+Devi) Perfect teeth (Rook) Concrete concrete Replacing dreams Burning sky Antifreeze (Rook) Hold the vision in your mind (Devi) BURNING SKY!!!!!!!!!!! (Rook) Dissociate, anethetize What broke you waking deep inside It never sleeps (Rook+Devi) IT NEVER DIES (Devi) Look, Look down on me Look, Look down on me um Look Look down on me I'm up with the Angels Look Look down on me Look Look down on me, huh Look Look down on me uhhh I'M UP WITH THE ANGELS FUCK U People think it's... People think it's edgy what I lived thru But I'm all sparkle sparkle and shit People think it's edgy what I live thru But I'm the nicest person I'm just like My Little Pony I'm just like uh, Cartoons And that's so silly to me If that's your idea of being edgy I guess that's good for you I think that you must have a NICE life A nice life A reaaal nice life haha ugh (Rook) Everything that you love Distortion distortion Everything that you breathe Distortion distortion Everything that you are Distortion distortion Everything that you need Distortion distortion (Devi) A set of perfect teeth Shining, glinting in the dark Trying not to scream Praying out for a spark from GOD, For the lights to come on Perfect teeth, perfect teeth Fucking chewing on me A set of perfect teeth Shining, glinting in the dark Trying for the scream Praying out for a spark For a sign from God For the lights to come on Perfect teeth fucking chewing on me (Rook) Distortion distortion
13.
Zero Ultra 03:31
(Devi) Twisting shadows, Of shadows, Of shadows, Of shadows, Of shadows, Of shadows, Echoed down thru time Twisting shadows, Of shadows, Of shadows, Of shadows, Of shadows, Of shadows, Of shadows of confused and poisonous light And everything it touches dies In a form of supercomplex violence But that could never happen to us (...) (Rook) I don't know if this is sustainable Try to make it last (Rook+Devi) Try to make it last (Rook) Everything that I got left is stuck inside me (Rook+Devi) Like bits of glass (Rook) In the moment I feel so infinite (Rook+Devi) Power over the bad dreams The dissonance But I need impossible gentleness (Rook) To stay intact (Devi) TO MAKE IT LAST (Rook) It's easier to make you think (Rook+Devi) I'm too far gone Than it is to try to tell you What's in my heart It's easier to make you think (Rook) I'm dangerous Than it is to try to tell you What *********** is (Devi)I NEEEED AUGH I NEEEEeedd uh Twisting shadows of shadows of something I can't say Echo down thru time Reflecting out thru a rainbow prism colorwheel In every direction, Of confused and poisonous light. (Rook+Devi) Pull me out of stasis (Rook) One more time return to life Search deep inside for weight to (Rook+Devi) Put behind every line (Rook) I can't remember what my name is (Rook+Devi) Shake the dust from inside Is there a way to break the cycle? (Rook) Defenses up. Borderline (Devi) EEEEEVERY THING I GOT LEFT STUCK INSIDE ME LIke bits of glass I neeeEEEEDDDDDDD Impossible gentleness To stay intact I I need Impossible- -ness I need impossible gentleness
14.
Mistake 02:04
(Devi) Ok As a young kid I studied the unknown on the internet Sacred geometries, Metatrons Cube, The Flower of Life, The Worldsoul, Y'know all that... When you're- When you're a kid y'know, you wanna try and understand the world Try and find your place in it People love to tell you your place in it but, Isn't that just for them? Isn't it always just for them? But it makes sense to wanna know what your place in the world should be But it's not for them It's never ever ever been just for them. I never never never never never never should have tried I never should have tried but it's not my fault. What does it really take to want to hurt a child? It seems like it's not much for a lot of people.
15.
(Devi) If everything fits into place, Seamlessly pieced together in the most terrible way I couldn't keep it together I couldn't make it last I couldn't prove I was good, I wonder if anybody could. I can't keep it together Nothing is meant to last for that long But it doesn't make me feel better To put it in a stupid song I wonder if life is all about just falling apart And painfully becoming something else? (Rook) Breaking down inside every day Another day of hoping for something That I can't say Love confusion hopelessness pain Just falling Through a thousand different lives Of the same thing (Rook+Devi) I'm a person inside a person inside a girl (Rook) I used to be (Rook+Devi) A million different things A million different dreams and hopes (Rook) But now I'm nothing Splintered, fighting for control (Rook+Devi) Inside a shattered soul (Rook) Staring blankly Frightened and all alone (Rook+Devi) Still moving forward (Rook) Broken down from everything (Rook+Devi) Did I do the right thing? (Rook) I wish I had the strength to be (Rook+Devi) Everything to everybody (Rook) I don't know what I need to be Hopeless dreaming Please take care of me I know there's no more place for me These ruined lives inside me scream (Devi) I couldn't keep it together I couldn't make it last I couldn't keep it together But it's not that bad.

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Songs assembled during 2020. By Devi and Rook

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released February 14, 2021

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